Am I crazy?

Hey guys, wanted some opinions or advice. This is my first year gardening. I tried a little tomato experiment upstairs over the winter but didn’t amount to much. So right now this is what I’m working with. I’m in Utah 6a. I think first mistake was too much variety, I have 15 different varieties, outside I tried to keep them grouped up but in the greenhouse it’s like one plant of each variety, is that gonna be a big issue? Next I think I spaced things too close together, I’m planning on letting things go as much as possible but I’m gonna end up doing a few single leaders especially in the outside bed on the left side. Do you guys think it’s way too close or probably fine? I plan for chaos, I’m a chef I thrive in it. Which leads me to my next question, I own a coffee shop on this is an attempt at growing as much produce as possible for the shop, but also using this as social media content as I try to make the switch to I guess “partial” farm to table. I’m nervous to post progress because that little part of me thinks “what if I get no tomatoes and I showed off to everyone that I was gonna have all these amazing tomatoes? So don’t guys think this is crazy? I’m in over my head? I don’t know I just put a lot into it so far I’m hoping I can see it through. I’ll answer any questions not really sure how much info to put down on what exactly I’m doing