As a child, I learned very early that people had plans for me. My Mom wanted me to pursue medicine like her and one day take over her practice. My Dad told me as a teenager “Kids your age are already in the Olympics”. Every holiday party or family get together, relatives would ask me “Do you have a boyfriend?” Classmates would very confidently state the careers they wanted to pursue. The colleges they wanted to attend. And I had no clue. All I knew is that I was exhausted. I was tired of planning. I was tired of being told what to do and what to aspire towards. I was tired of feeling this peer pressure to be someone I wasn’t. I decided that the best plan is having no plan at all! The best plan is anticipating that things will change, that they MUST change for the better! I decided that I was going to live my life, not based on outside expectations, but what called to me from within…what intrinsically motivated me. I realized that what motivated me wasn’t external power, prestige, and acclaim, but curiosity, self-discovery, self-love, justice, and freedom. I am learning to fully embrace uncertainty and the unknown!
#Healing #uncertainty #theunkown #liberation
ID: video of me rolling down a wooden path in a garden surrounded by plants. I am a darkskinned Black person sitting in a green electric wheelchair.
Aksepte Ensètitid
Lè m te timoun, mwen te aprann byen bonè ke moun te gen plan pou mwen. Manman m te vle m pouswiv medsin tankou l epi yon jou reprann pratik li. Papa m te di m lè m te adolesan “Timoun nan laj ou yo deja nan olenpik yo”. Nan chak fèt jou ferye oswa rasanbleman fanmi, fanmi yo te konn mande m “Èske ou gen yon mennaj?” Kamarad klas yo te konn di avèk anpil konfyans karyè yo te vle pouswiv. Inivèsite yo te vle ale yo. Epi mwen pa t gen okenn lide. Tout sa m te konnen se ke mwen te fatige. Mwen te fatige planifye. Mwen te fatige yo di m sa pou m fè ak sa pou m aspire. Mwen te fatige santi presyon kanmarad sa a pou m vin yon moun mwen pa t ye. Mwen te deside ke pi bon plan an se pa gen okenn plan ditou! Pi bon plan an se antisipe ke bagay yo pral chanje, ke yo DWE chanje pou pi bon! Mwen te deside ke mwen pral viv lavi m, pa baze sou atant deyò, men sou sa ki te rele m anndan… sa ki te motive m intrinsèkman. Mwen reyalize ke sa ki te motive m se pa t pouvwa ekstèn, prestij, ak lwanj, men kiryozite, dekouvèt pwòp tèt mwen, lanmou pwòp tèt mwen, jistis, ak libète. M ap aprann aksepte ensètitid ak sa m pa konnen nèt!
ID: videyo mwen k ap woule desann yon chemen an bwa nan yon jaden ki antoure ak plant. Mwen se yon moun nwa po nwa ki chita nan yon chèz woulant elektrik vèt.
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